Nobody given A CHANCE !!!

Hai guys...its was quite long time never check out my blog !!! So did you miss me guys ???Sure is YES !!! SO LETS GO TO THE TOPIC !!! YEA..Its about Nobody given me A CHANCE !!! Yes..its true !!FIRST I want to say my ABOUT Fxxking YEAR OF 2012 !!!this not like what actual year that i want...seriously its A FxxkING YEAR for me...ya!!! I'm hurt alot alot in this year ...So many people hurt me and broke my heart !!!and thanks to all who is a part with it...Such a bad and unlucky year...First of all is My RESULT ,SCREWED UP LA !!!Bad result...Some more hurt my parents!!!SO WHATS SHOULD I DO ?? Of course Re-take again..Wasting time again to Refresh the whole Form5 things !!!Bullshits ...JUNE PAPER FAIL AGAIN !!!What i should i do,TAKE AGAIN LA...SHIT THINGS ALWAYS WILL HAPPEN TO ME WANT WHAT !!! Second my dream...want to be a SINGER !!!Screwed up again LA...Guitar also can't learn then how want to be a SINGER and writter !!!USELESS DJ LA ME....THIRD my COLLEGE LIFE !!! At least i have hope for that to stay away from everyone,but i never thought this want also will SUCK !!! First my mom found a College at Puchong with a Hostel !!!But full of Indians ...I wasn't Like it much,but what should I do !!!I JUST accept it..because its have Hostel i Live at there ...But another College at KL was called me in the same time !!!My mom more prefer in this College because no Hostel and more near..So she forced me to go This College Gemilang !!But as far i'm happy in This College because the Lectures are cares me alot...And this College has alot Events by own !!!I'M HAPPY WITH IT...The fourth is my most Beloved Grandpa,i already lost alot people..Now i Lost MY MOST BELOVED GRANDPA...I knew i need to accept it but why is Now !!!He the only want Love me alot ...and now he is gone too !!!Now i have no one in my WORLD...THANKS GOD YOU ARE GREAT...END OF IT MOST HURT ED THING...The Love !!! Every time, the person i love it most will be the hurts me more..I don't no why,,but its always just happens to me...I will always love the person most,but they don't even give me A CHANCE !!!I JUST ASKING FOR ONLY SINGLE CHANCE,WHY DON'T THEY UNDERSTAND ME...Whats wrong with me,is nothing less,nothing more with me !!!Then whats the Fxxking PROBLEM with me !!!AT least tell ME that i can't change right but always say 'NO' to me..How can i know !!!Is it so Hard to accept me ??Hey,come on la !!!I'm not like others OK !!!Looking for sex's or ask u to suffer for me or what else OK...I just want a person that can love me and really really care for me when i need them...I always be there for everyone,but why ?when i need someone ,but there is no one for me...Why??Since from small i use to be alone all the time,because there is no want for me...My parents always go work... their mind full with work work work STUFFS ONLY!!!That's all... Until No time for their own child also!!!So since small i have no want to LOVE me till now also the same !!!But Now i want a person really can Love me,and i found it !!!I found 2..First want is a Failure..The person never ever try to understand me !!!So i just wait for the person for 3 years like nothing...Like a idiot !!!Then long time ago now i found another want...and this time i seriously thought the person will accept me and the person will be my side forever...Like the person i really want !!!So with the fully hope and with my heart is full of the love ...But i never knew i will be REJECTED TOO...but this time is i found out by myself before the person tells me!!!Is better then heard by your most beloved person that going to REJECT YOU...Right ?? I know is going to be very Hurt...its hard too!!!But i need to accept it what..Always i'm the want be the saddest,I'm the want will be most Hurt ed what...So what can i do CRY CRY CRY !!!That's all i can do...But one thing I LOVE THE PERSON SO MUCH..WITH MY SINCERE HEART I'M TELLING THIS...But starting now i'm not going to love anyone anymore,i'm going to be the selfish person that's all !!THAT'S IT...FOR THE WORD LOVE !!! SO what can i do now...you all already read right !!!No body given me a chance !!! I'm a failure person in this world!!!I'm useless,dump,stupid,idiot,fool,ugly,unlucky,no personality,poor and ext... I'm a nothing fellow...I don't why god created me to born here !!! I seriously don't know what to do now... I just feel i'm nothing,for anything !!! I'm trying to find a way to get me out from here...FAR FAR FAR FROM EVERTHING !!! JUST ONE WAY I WANT TO FIND...JUST ONE WAY...GOD PLEASE SHOW ME THE WAY... I seriously seek and tied with this HUMAN RACE and THIS WORLD...SO PLEASE SHOW ME THE WAY AS SOON AS POSSIBLE...PLEASE GOD!!!I REALLY NEED THE WAY...

Be My Valentine !!

Hey Guys !!!Long Time no see yaa...
OK...2days My Title is "Be My Valentine"...sweet title right !!yeah !i do..haha !!!
February 14...What a nice date on the day is "Valentine day" !!!Such a Beautiful day...On the day a lot of peoples will giving Greetings to their beloved persons right!! YES!its will so SWEET!!When you watch 'that a guy giving a BOUQUET or GIFT to his girl,and the girl will so excited and KISS the guy'..Owhh!!!This kinds of activity's on the day do YOU feel Jealous ?? YES,I DO !!

I always wish that why don't i have a chance like others... Even thought my parents!!!Every Valentine my (HERO) Dad will bought a Big Bouquet for my (PRINCESS) mom...HAHA !!!I see them every time they fight,some time they fight like World War-3...But they till so SWEET!!!My dad now 50+ years old and My mom 47+ years old...They till LOVE each other!!!Owhh..so sweet right!!!Did you have parents like Mine ???Sure Have Right !!!HAHA...But for me,i every time celebrate My Valentine Day with My Friends and Family !!!Not a big deal that i have a LOVER or not !!!Cause i already have person to LOVE me...My Friends,My Family and others!!!So i don't feel that i need someone SPECIAL to Love me...But this year!!!I DO..FEEL IT!!!That i need someone SPECIAL TO Celebrate Valentine with Me... I'm not feel That i'm LONELY,but need that i can show My LOVE to the Person!!!As my Parents..xDD
So This year i want celebrate 'My Valentine Day' with My XXX...I found xxx such Long time ago but i just Not have that Braveness to tell that 'I LOVE YOU'....Maybe this Valentine day will be My Proposing Day to xxx ....My Valentine Day is not like others i would make it Romantic,Sweet and Unforgettable for My xxx ...As a Romeo and Juliet!!!Haha..So Syok o!!!But i Will DO ...Cause i wanted show that 'HOW MUCH I LOVE xxx'...

So this year "Did you Be My Valentine" ???